The moment I received my temporary Certificate of Registration during Mini-Convocation on 8 April 2010.And this is the reason I stay so calmly at home, while most of my course mates traveling overseas and locally as much as they could before we start to work like a "slave" in government hospitals in June later. At some points of time I was quite jealous that they can have playful experience with lovely course mates before the final farewell, but it is not so depressing when thinking that I am staying at home helping my mom with houseworks and also it is a time for me to understand family better, vice versa... before I again become separated from them and could hardly have chance to come back home as frequent as I used to.
Staying at home, I serve as a "baby-sitter" for 2 girls most of the time, while other time doing simple houseworks, helping my mom out. Sometimes feel very annoyed when the kids keep "kacau" (disturb) me but it is actually quite fun when listen to their laughter. But this elder niece, really been a headache for me, not listening to the adults' advise and acting without manner, haih... whatever it is, my dad says "she is still a kid what..." (she is 3 years 5 months old currently)
My 2 nieces on the right, the left one is the daughter of my cousin who visited my family today.
My cupboard after my cleaning... ;-)My other favourite activities at home include watching television shows, reading newspaper for all day long and of course, having my mom's cooking! ahha! Life has been so simple and calm so that I need not to use my brain at all while doing all these activities, everything at home is so slow, my thought also become slow down, so that I can appreciate every single moment better. In fact Chinese people always say that the brain will become rust, haha don't worry I am not as "retarded" yet, just hoping that whatever medical knowledge that I revised and had been used all these years will still be retained after this not so long enjoyable period.
Suddenly flashback to the time I was pursuing for my undergraduate study, it was a huge contrast to what I am enjoying now. For the last 5 years, I had been living in a stressful period that I was very worrying about my study, although there were short periods when I could totally set myself free, the fears continue after that. Very often, I had palpitation, which is a symptom of anxiety, when the heart pumps forcefully. (when you are relaxing, normally you don't feel your heart beating, so you don't realize your heart beat until I tell you to feel it now, can you feel that??)
If I were given a choice to live this relaxing way at home without the worry of running out of money, I will NOT want to. Because to me, I need triggers or challenges, which keep me palpitating and pumping up more blood to my brain, so that I can always think rationally, making full use of my organ systems... See? This is also the reason why I chose this career. Looking forward to my work, meanwhile enjoying the moment with my family members!!
The heart in palpitation, a "fight" response that sustain our life and make us achieve better!!
