Today had my second trial for Basic Science Examination in Orthopaedic Surgery, it ended up with a failure. After the failed first trial, I thought myself had put enough effort in studying towards a pass, however, there is too deep the knowledge, and too wide the scope medicine can be. My limited brain capacity could not bring me to a higher level of success.
Extra concentration, extra effort, and extra mileage of traveling had put in. I know, my knowledge has improved compared to the previous attempt, however, it's just not enough for me to proceed.
Though knowing my weakness, I still feeling very depress of this. Feeling of helpless, despair, at one point of time I thought of to quit study and continue to be a general practitioner. On a second thought, this might be wrong as I am still young and there are always rooms for improvements! Third thought, maybe I am not destined to be an Orthopaedic surgeon?
Feeling so tired, had been having dyspepsia and palpitation for the whole month, at least what I can do now is probably taking a good rest, relax my mind, and perhaps meditation? Figuring out my future... What will my future be?
