Failure

I am somebody who don't like to talk about my failure to the others. Today, this will document the history.

Today had my second trial for Basic Science Examination in Orthopaedic Surgery, it ended up with a failure. After the failed first trial, I thought myself had put enough effort in studying towards a pass, however, there is too deep the knowledge, and too wide the scope medicine can be. My limited brain capacity could not bring me to a higher level of success. 

Extra concentration, extra effort, and extra mileage of traveling had put in. I know, my knowledge has improved compared to the previous attempt, however, it's just not enough for me to proceed.

Though knowing my weakness, I still feeling very depress of this. Feeling of helpless, despair, at one point of time I thought of to quit study and continue to be a general practitioner. On a second thought, this might be wrong as I am still young and there are always rooms for improvements! Third thought, maybe I am not destined to be an Orthopaedic surgeon?

Feeling so tired, had been having dyspepsia and palpitation for the whole month, at least what I can do now is probably taking a good rest, relax my mind, and perhaps meditation? Figuring out my future... What will my future be?