My final MBBS long case

I just finished my long case of my Final MBBS examination today, the toughest test among all the papers in this examination I would say. Long case is a test where the candidates are given 1 hour to clerk and examine the patient and do whatever necessary to come out with diagnosis and treatment plan for the patient.

HAPPY because I got quite a simple case, SAD because I fooled myself and I was so regret.

I got a paediatric bronchial asthma case, everything in the history was fine until I realized I forgot to ask simple but important pieces of information: the patient's school performance and his father's smoking status. These factors were important to assess the outcome of bronchial asthma to the patient's daily living and also factors that may trigger the asthma. When the professor asked me about this 2 questions, to make sure that I was not screwed because of my forgetfulness, I lied to her saying the answer that I presumed, as I thought she would not have the information from the short case notes she got. However, she turned to me asking "did u really ask?" I stunted, I knew I should no longer struggle with the answer that I presumed and I just kept quiet... She replied with "so you didn't ask, never mind..." and the discussion continued. Luckily, she seemed not to be disturbed to the lie I made.

I still remember 1 of the many reasons I chose this career. During the break after matriculation and before entering university, that was 2005, I worked part-time as a promoter of massage equipments at one of the famous shopping center in Bukit Bintang, Low Yat Plaza! My working experience was, I had to tell many lies and exaggerated the good points my products in order to push the sell so that I could earn more commission. I felt so annoyed towards the end as I felt I was cheating people to buy my products, and I think the same also goes to businessmen, as witnessed from many dramas. Therefore, I need a job which I only need to tell the truth, and I just thought of doctor.

When dealing with lives, we cannot lie, we can only tell the truth to the patient, "you just have 6 months time left", "sorry I don't how to treat your problem but I will refer you to the other specialist..." In my 5 years time as a medical student, I did not lie to my patients and my lecturers, however today, during my final MBBS examination, I lied because I was so stupid that I thought I could be escaped from being bombarded without thinking of the consequences.

I was so regret, I confessed in front of Buddha that I will not lie anymore in my career, because I am going to be a safe doctor, dealing with lives.

"So what is his school's performance?"

最后的战役

这两个星期是我的考试周，昨天考了第三张试卷后，今天终算可以休息下，可是要继续温习，因为下星期还有更加困难的临床考试。

在我”细佬“的facebook里看到这个连接，是周杰伦的《最后的战役》，那时是考试前的那几天，大家都被三个星期的study week折磨到身心疲累了！这首歌，激起了大家的战斗心！一心一意要把这场考试干掉！！大家一起来当医生吧！！

《最后的战役》

作曲:周杰倫,  編曲:鍾興民
監製:周杰倫,  填詞:方文山

機槍掃射聲中我們尋找遮蔽的戰壕
兒時沙雕的城堡毀壞了重新蓋就好
可是你那件染血佈滿彈孔的軍外套
卻就連　禱告手都舉不好

在硝煙中想起冰棒汽水的味道
和那些無所事事一整個夏天的年少
我放下槍回憶去年一起畢業的學校
而眼淚　一直都忘記要掉

嘲笑的聲音在風中不斷被練習　這樹林間充滿了敵意
部隊棄守陣地你堅持要我也離去　我怎麼能放棄

我留著陪你　強忍著淚滴　有些事真的來不及　回不去
你臉在抽搐　就快沒力氣　家鄉事不准我再提
我留著陪你　最後的距離　是你的側臉　倒在我的懷裡
你慢慢睡去　我搖不醒你　淚水在戰壕裡　決了堤

这首歌说的是朋友之间的情谊，对朋友的不离不弃，一起为同一个目标前进。越靠近毕业的时候，就会越来越有一种要分离，伤心的感觉。其实只要想一想，就算今后我们毕业当了医生，被派到不同的医院工作，我们还是会有机会在一起，一起去上进修课程(continuous medical education)，一起去这同学的婚礼，一起去旅行，一起回来考Master。。。所以，不要以为我们的友情会随着这次毕业而结束，而我的祝福，也会一直围绕着你。所以，这个考试绝对不会是我们最后的战役，我们的结局，也不会像歌词中那么悲惨。。。

“有些事真的来不及，回不去”，所以事事都要及时把握好，包括我们的友情。看到每天都有人在Facebook写些祝大家考试及格的祝福，感恩大家都有同一股力量，我们的成绩，一定会因为有着这一股神奇的力量在保佑着我们的！（我们都好久没那么同声同气了！哈哈！）

一起为我们的那个目标前进吧！

年轻力量

今天晚餐时间难得有机会和junior坐在一起，立刻就被其中一位问道曾经是否有为马大佛学会写歌，心里有点受宠若惊，毕竟过了那么多年，竟然还有junior知道我曾经做过的事，当年在台上表演的画面再次涌上脑海，把想读书的心情都丢到一旁了~~（我正在准备着我最后一次医学专业考试，要当医生看这次了！）

在马大佛学会，真的是一个非常让我受宠若惊的环境。在我大学第二年，刚加入马大佛学会这个大家庭的时候，我还是一个对佛学完全陌生的人，筹办了当年的第三届资料展，竟然让我全权负责戏剧，在我少少的创意加上佛学会师兄们的协助下，《妙缘》终于演出成功，希望能让当晚的观众们有多多少少的input啦！

学佛的机会不随着资料展的结束而停止，我对学佛更是越来越有信心，后来更因为她的邀请去增江带儿童佛学营。跟小孩们玩乐的同时，发现了在佛学的路上，我们需要年轻人来协助，以及将这美妙的佛法传到更多人的心中，让他们也能和我们一样，感受到这法喜！就像佛陀的经典，也是由比丘们一代一代地传下来。心想我能为佛教做的事情太少了，希望能写一首歌，写下我的想法，希望会有人能因为我做的这小小事，接引他们来学佛！就因为这样，我写了这首歌《年轻力量》。

《年轻力量》

听 这些动人的音符
看 那是我们在歌唱
年轻人 不用再隐藏
用你的歌声 一起歌颂佛法

唱 出我们心中喜悦
跳 出快乐动感舞步
一起来 加入我们吧！
不让青春空留白
生命 因佛法而充满光彩

一起来释放年轻的力量
将美妙法音唱给世界听
不管前面的浪涛声有多大
都阻挡不了 我们心中的呐喊

来发扬年轻的力量
以美妙法音感动所有人
未来的路需要我们去承担
这佛法创造 我们大家 美好的将来

很简单的词和曲，竟然成了当晚《菩提之夜-风的讯息》的大合唱。唱着它，看着全场观众挥动他们的手，我都不管我唱得好不好听了，因为我相信，至少他们已经能感受到在台上唱着歌的歌手的法喜了！

隔了三年，依然还有人正在唱这首歌，心中当然安慰，希望这首歌能像法轮一样常转，传到每一个人的心中。回到话题的最初，为什么junior会突然问起呢？因为他们昨天才参加了马大佛学会三大活动的相见欢，有唱到这首歌！我心想，希望他们能有一个爱学习的心，年轻的心，三大甚至是其他活动都可以一代一代地传下去。而我，也是时候回到我的岗位，读书了！要准备毕业了！

年轻就是本钱！

junior们！要精进哦！